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[Jun. 11th, 2010|05:37 pm] |
i wish i once again knew the words to write in this text box, but i fail to find words again.
so i will ramble- do with it what you will.
it's summer, and my sleeping patterns are once again out of whack. i find myself up till ungodly hours of the night (or morning since i see the sun rise) and i sit in my room that is only illuminated by a computer screen wondering. pondering. seeking out what's next, or better yet, what IS next.
i realize that my relationship with Jesus is stronger than ever, but- i feel like doors are shutting when i feel like He's opening them in the first place.
it's like walking into a friends house you know really well, and them inviting you in and then them shutting the door in your face before you get a full foot in the door.
doors are being shut in my face.
so where do i go now? continue on to the next door, or....go through a window?
do i go after this thing i felt i was being led to, or take it as Jesus saying, "no move on".
today i realized that we need to revel in those moments and take them for what they are. when the door closes appreciate them, don't dwell and see them as a, "failing point". that's what Satan wants from us, he wants us to be angry, upset, depressed, etc. because that's when he can attack us, at our weakest.
when we seek Jesus in our hard times not only does it show our devotion and want of Jesus, it shows our spiritual maturity. it shows how much we strive for a better relationship with our Creator.
the door may close in our face, we may feel like we're down and out and don't have the urge to knock again....
but, in Luke 11: 9-10 it says, " So I say to you : Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be open to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."
so take the chance in hard times to knock. He will open, it may be shut back in your face, you may be looking for a window, but knock...He'll open when the time is right
stay true-
amy elizabeth. |
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